I don't have alot I can say, So I'm sorry for that. You have had you guard up for so long. Your brain is saying you can deal with the memories but part of you says your not ready for it. They will come slowly at least mine come slowly. Last night i had flashback to my childhood. I'm so sorry to hear about your college experience. I hope for you they come slowly so you can take, one memory at a time. Take Care!!!