So, I am thinking about writing my pdoc another letter (ended up emailing instead of snail mailing the other one) saying what the psychologist I saw yesterday's thoughts were. I would actually mail this letter though, as I don't want to send him too many emails and this one is not looking for a timely response. I just want to make him aware of it before my next visit with him, so he can use his usual "I got your letter/email, what's going on?" and I will have no choice but to tell him (since he will already know from the letter/email). It's my way of getting around being too shy to admit it on my own in person. I communicate better in writing.

I'm just afraid that he will want to add more medications after I tell him what my psychologist thinks/said. And I really don't want more medication. I can accept that I need the stuff I am currently on as it is helping, but I'm uneasy about going on more. But my psychologist wants me to talk with my pdoc about it. I voiced my worries about getting put on more medication to her. her response was she was not an MD, but it might be possible that just increasing or changing one of my current meds might help, but my pdoc would know that. So, I guess I need to talk to him about it.

He knows about my picking problem, as that was the original letter that I emailed. he never responded, but I sent a 2nd email saying not to because I decided to see someone on my own, so that is probably why he didn't. Now I need to let him know that my psychologist thinks the behavior is compulsive and anxiety induced. Great...."OCD" and "anxiety"....I barely want one more medication....I definitely don't want 2 more.

I see my psychologist again on the 11th (she's gone for the 4th of July next week), so I will see her again before I see my pdoc again. I need to listen to her though. If she thinks I need to talk to my pdoc about it, I guess I should.

Okay, I'll stop rambling now. I hate when I get to thinking about stuff too much.