Hiya!

Recognizing the fact that you're hurt is a good step-and you were also able to identify yhat you have trust issues;

Rejection sucks, mmmkay lol; fer real though. I do have a suspicion that it is a familiar your feeling to you-a feeling that originated in some form by your parents;

Sounds like you're spinning in a recreation here if you're finding yourself in the same patterns with people. I'd want to dig into what conflict looked like with your parents in order to get an idea of conflict resolution now-additionally where those trust issues come from as well.

Sometimes you gotta cut people outta your life in order to gain stable ground, but unless you've worked through the reasons why you hung around them in the first place, you make not be able to recognize people that will treat you better, let alone be able to treat them with good conflict resolution techniques too. It's under the principle...winnicott, I think-that made a statement that said something like if your parents never taught you good coping skills-then how will you know them-and how can you know or be aware of exactly what it is you don'y know?

I wish you the best yo, hugs! Idk if any of this made sense :/
Take care,
-obj