That's a tough one, James. I think I understand what you're asking. I don't have this problem, myself, but somehow your post is resonating with me.

Remind me what your self-care entails? Therapy? Meds?

Depression definitely can cause your feelings to flatten out. You have a lot of questions without answers - that has GOT to be really frustrating. A good T can help you sort through all of that and take the issues one at a time.

Are you doing any of that already?