no, not a doormat.. a human being she is using your kindess to get what she needs - well i suppose good on her for gettingher needs met - but you have to start thinking about yours -

next time she rings late just say you are in bed - see if that puts her off - when i was a kid we didnt have much ..sigh...$1000 of toys ? lucky her i guess - but not really cos she isnt being taught the meaning of things and the wroth of things i guess

as to the fact that you didnt get toys = you are worthless....no it just means you were around people who were either too damaged or too stupid to see what it meant to you - the word "caregiver" and "parent " really should come wiht a licence or a test ....

at least you have one wonderful gift that comes in thousands of parts - PC and all of us here

gives you a hug if ok

get some sleep and try to take care of you ok

P7