I am medicated with 40mg of citalopram, 1mg risperdal,20mg celexa(when needed), and St. John's wart.
With all of this I still have Panic attacks(gut wrenching fear, lose breath and shake). I am still depressed and have "serial killer" moments of anger.
I have been diagnosed with postpartum scycosis, borderline manic depressive and bi polar, and being monitored for schitzofrenia
The other day i got so mad at my dog just because she was in my face wanting some love that i puched a whole in my bedroom wall.I was so embarrased that i hid it from my boyfriend with a house coat.
I slammed a cart into the back of a lady's leg because she kept stoping infront of me in a grocery isle.
I have literally thrown my daughter into her crib because of her crying(she was over tired and scared of me)
I slam, kick, punch, bite, scream at anything. I try not to do it to my family but things have happend. I have even slammed my own head into the wall in a fit of rage.
This also effects daily things like going out. If I go to a mall and it seems really busy I leave because I know within 5 minutes i am going to want to beat somebody.
Now my question is should i be taking medication for depression and all these other things if my main problem is just my temper. Is there something for just anger that isn't going to turn me into a zombie?
I am going to a therapist and she just tells me I need a break from life. That doesn't work because I know eventually that i have to face reality again. I have gone to anger management and was more angery after each class than i was going in.
Any suggestions? Does anyone else have this problem or feel over medicated for the wrong things?

Please help me put my head together because the doctors don't seem to be able to.