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Originally Posted by missmoodyblues86
Sometimes I feel grateful, but other times I feel completely shameful, and childish. I've never had a job and I'm 24, no driver's license yet either. It's not like I'm lazy, but I feel like I need these types of people and relationships or I will feel so empty, even crazy without them.
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i feel this way too, except i'm 31
for the longest time it was ok to rationalize it to myself, because i was going to school, & my ADD was causing me to struggle more than i used to before. i wasn't even able to go full-time anymore. but i just graduated in may, finally, after a bazillion years, & while at first it seemed like it would be great to just be home & take care of things that got neglected when i was in school, i now feel like a total mooch & loser. i feel like i have no job prospects & no future outside of the house.
it's definitely not helping my depression. it's especially hard for me because i was raised by a very strong woman who never wanted her daughters to be dependent on anyone. for the longest time, i was just like that, & i loved it! i loved being free & not afraid of taking care of myself. but over the years i have found that i struggle more & more with just basic care for myself. i don't know what's wrong with me.
anyway, sorry for stealing your thread. it just made me feel like opening up.