Ok, more secrets...

Every time I drive on the high on ramp and off ramp to the highway near my home, I dream of driving off the hill. And I wonder if my car will flip or not. At that moment, I really could do it too.

No one at work knows I have a mental illness, or two, or three...
I am not out of the closet at work. Only one person knows I'm gay.
I really want to come out as gay at work, but my partner is still in the closet, so I can't.
I really wish she was out.
With my OCD I have some awful obsessive thoughts. Like I think about...well I really can't get into that.
I eat too much because I am afraid of being a sexual being. I don't want anyone to desire me.
I eat too much because I want to destroy myself and I quit smoking, drinking, cutting, and burning, Eating too much is the only thing left to me.