"I used to have a therapist and a psychiatrist but I am no longer seeing those" this causes me a lot of concern. Elizabethmarie, I am glad you have reached out here on line but as amandlouise has so eloquently stated, there are lots of possibile diagnoses and you need professionals to help you sort it all out. I hope your parent(s) are supportive and I hope you have the opportunity to get mental health care. At the very least you need to see your general doc. And your boyfriend sounds very supportive but you cannot assume his interpretation of your behavior is accurate. Like you he is not a professional in mental health, and all the love in the world is not enough to make a proper diagnosis. Hopefully he will be able to support you and maybe accompany you to the doctor's office.

Good luck and take care.