I think these feelings are my own fault. Last night I let myself fall into the thinking again of how good me and my ex were together. I fell asleep (peacefully mind you) idly wondering what happened to us. We were extremely good together, we still are, and I don't want to be with him and nor do I miss him in particular but I do miss that kind of chemistry. I don't think I'm going to find that again with any other person and that in itself just makes me feel really alone.

Also, it doesn't help that the new guy who is pursuing me reminds me of my ex (which again last night made me wonder if I'm just subconsciously latching onto guys that remind me of him or do I just attract that particular type of person in general) and my best friend is mad at me for not talking to him very much in the past few weeks.. and therefore ignoring me in return. I was busy, I couldn't talk to him so this is so unfair..

Sigh. I was a fool to think that all these negative emotions were over.