Your welcome Anika, it may take you a few times to read it and really think about it and what it means. And what young children do and need and perhaps there was something that you didn't get and your really not aware of it. Many times parents tend to place too much on the way a child looks and they get too picky. And they pick too much and are so unaware of how it can have bad effects later on in a child.

Also a child that is not really attended and encouraged to participate in their environment can be adversely effected and they are unaware of the effect of the lack of this and it comes up with low self esteem or other issues and they do not realize where it comes from.

I have every confidence that you can learn to direct yourself away from being so self critical and self controling. No you don't like curves on your body, but you like it everywhere else, think about presentation, most presentations have some kind of curve to it. Curves are soothing whereas clean cut square objects present control and simplicity and have less warmth. Men often ten to prefer boxy clean lines. Except for cars, they often relate to a car as a she, therefore they like to see curves.
Isn't that funny. But a man who is a hunter or builder will often pick a boxy truck.
Today there is a new presentation for these men to have both, therefore the peterbuilt nose on many vehicles are desirable as they present a curve within the nose or face of that vehicle.

Most men like women with curves and some meat on them.

Take the mirror away and let yourself explore the enviornment take the focus off of the control of yourself. You need to find control elsewhere. Think about hobbies and what you can do to find control over something else. Perhaps take up drawing or even sculpture or even pottery, you need to have other things in your life that you can learn to control over and not you. Cover or get rid of the mirror and that dam scale and venture out, the sooner you find an outlet the better. You will need an outlet that will take the place of timing all your control over your appearance so that will require you to find something you can do alot. I can even be jewerly making or something with patterns that has steps to focus on instead of the steps you take to self control.

Open Eyes