Hi HelgaDE. I am sorry for your trials. I think I know what you are going through. I lost my mother 3 years ago. Everything she had(the house,property, and everything that she owned)was left up to me to take care of. All of the family was grieving but noone stopped to say,"Hey,Are you ok"? It is hard but it does get easier. I wish you the best my friend....Good luck.