thanx for taking the time to read my post.
I am so lucky to have a supportive and compassionate T so I'm not worried about working through this with her. I guess I'm worried about what i will uncover that i havent thought about for nearly 20 years. Inner child work has always frightened me and i am just making the connection between that resistance and the childhood abuse.
I write a lot of stuff down inbetween sessions... word association, mind mapping that kind of thing but have never done it regarding the abuse. Maybe thats something i need to think about and try.
I always try to make sure i have somewhere to be after a session so try and get my head out of "that space"!
Thankyou for your words of encouragement and support Jazzy123456, jwabf and autumnleaves. I feel less crazy now!