Yeup, here too. Everything is fragmented. My sister informed me that what my mother did to me scared her into silence........... she refused to elaborate even to this day, so I have no idea what she is talking about, but I have no memories of this. As a consequence my sister developed an eating disorder as a child and is extremely stoic. None of us talk about our childhood memories to each other, never have. However, I have come to depend upon certain dreams as this is where my trauma memories arise from, as verified by my mother when she was alive.

I keep wanting to write my life story. I start out but then I feel very sleepy while doing this and can't continue.