Hi Sanada ~ I know what you mean. Do you suffer from anxiety also? Many times, when quite anxious, our minds too weird things to us. The "voices" in our head keep making 'noise' and that tends to confuse us. I know when I have a dozen things going on in my head at once, I get addled, and can't make decisions, can't sleep, feel almost out of touch with myself. i finally realize that whatever I'm anxious about is usually something that i have no control of. I have to keep reminding myself that worrying & fretting about it won't change anything. And sometimes I don't even KNOW what I'm anxious about. That's when I have to do something to take my mind off whatever is making me "crazy." LOL

I'm on an antidepressant, and at one time I was being treated for anxiety too. i've also been in and out of therapy most of my adult life. It has helped alot, and as long as i'm open & honest with my therapist, it works great. Sometimes you have to decide if your current therapist is doing you much good. I have changed therapists in the past when I felt I wasn't going anywhere.

i wish you the very best. Keep posting & maybe it will help. God bless. hugs, Lee