My secret fear: Was letting my husband know that when my baby was just months old and we were all alseep she would turn into a monster trying to get me. Also there was a wolf that would try to grap me on my way up the stairs. Thank God those are not true or here right now.

My secret thought:I always thought the tv was talking about me.

Secret actions: Would hide in the closet to deal with all the voices, scratch myself to feel the pain I had caused some how and wish I was never born, racing thoughts of how to just end my life.