I am so very grateful for the empathy and I understanding I have received here.

Peanuts - I am printing out your post to study again -and I might just get those books. I KNEW and agreed with all that you said but because of my frustration and anger - was not able to see it like this anymore. I am going to leave for the rest of today and start fresh tomorrow.

Thank you so much for your wonderful insight. Sometimes I think I must be the only mom to have such a cheeky child so it is really good to know that I am not the only one going through this.

Tired as I am - I won't give up. I CAN'T give up! He is my son and I love him!