this is just "over my head" I feel like I"m going no where to night. Back to where I was a few months ago. Back to trouble. It's time, to really look inside and find out why I feel the need to SI. Not sure what I will find but, I have to, this can't continue like this anymore. I can't stand to feel like this, and I have 2 hours to put a better face on so that My sister wont be able to tell what I did tonight. but to see the more positive side of me, I hope I can pull this off.