AJ's dad said tonight that he would like to take AJ's girlfriend's parents, with AJ and his girl, out to dinner. He wants me to go too.. I said I didn't have any clothes to go out and he said he'd get me some.. I said that is ok, you can take them out. He said it wouldn't look right if I didn't go...He got sorta mad at me cuz I don't wanna go..

Been so long that I've gone anywhere.. ANd well, I don't feel comfy around folks, and before I started staying home, when I did go out, I had to sit by a stupid window or door or I get all dizzy and weird if I am not close to a door.. Of course they don't know this, and if I told them, they'd just say "don't be silly" you will do fine...

I panic in cars too. lol.. shhhhhhhhhhhhh, I am a mess sometimes. I can hide it cuz folks have accepted that I just hang out around the house. ANd they are busy doing their thing, they don't question "why" I don't want to go anywhere...

I told AJ's girlfriend to look out for a lady for AJ's dad.. Maybe by the time of the "dinner thing" AJ's dad can take his new lady friend>????

Just rambling... This had to happen just when I was feeling that I don't need to visit PC anymore. That I am A ok.... Now this all surfaces ... What a hoot!

ANd NO I am not going to the dinner party either... NO matter what. Even if they buy me designer clothes and diamonds. KInda late for me anyways.........