Good question....Was thinking how I am going to get out of the "wedding" should there be one... SO, even if AJ asked me, I'd say "no"..It isn't that I don't want to, it is because I can't...

I've changed so much.. Well, everyone changes... Whatever the reasons, I am sure I have plenty, just not all that important, is that I am left with fear and panic when over stimulated or out of my comfort zone, which happens to be a small comfort zone... The "zest" for life flew out the door over 10 years ago.. No biggie. I am old.. I am cool, as long as I am in my comfort zone...

I am sure they really won't mind if I don't participate in the "fun" things.. I just don't know why AJ's dad thinks it is important for me to participate.. He never wanted me to before... shrugs shoulders