I know that sounds like a question with an obvious answer: because a T is like a doctor and has to know what's wrong in order to help us. But why do we have to "expose" ourselves? I'm asking because I am struggling with talking to my T about some of my problems. I don't know how to talk about them. I want to hide. It's not about abuse, just things that will make me blush. I already started talking in bits and pieces about something, but since my last session I want to tell her more. It feels urgent! On the other hand, parts want to stop the part who wants to talk about this stuff. The part who wants to talk trusts my T and thinks she will help.

But I'm ashamed to talk about it. I emailed her that I was scared and wanted to hide under all the pillows on her couch. I don't want to say the words. But it's so silly. I worried about something for my whole teenage years because I wouldn't say the words. My T already knows but I want to do it over with her. I want her to be my mother and I will tell her what was wrong back then. But why is it okay to tell all this personal stuff? It's like being naked before my T. I don't know if it's okay or not. I know she will say it is, but WHY? Logically I know, but emotionally I don't know understand why it's okay to tell her things that make me ashamed from long ago. Also, why do I want to tell her so badly?