I don't know if you are talking about sexual stuff, but this is something I just talked to my T about in my last session. I asked him if it felt uncomfortable to him when people told him really specific things. And he said that yeah, at first it did. But he thinks about how much harder it is for the person doing the telling. And he said that he almost imagines holding the words, the story, gently on a pillow, because it deserves that kind of respect and care.

I have some things I just can't open my mouth and say. I can totally form the sentences in my head but I can't get them to come out of my mouth. It's frustrating, but it's scary and embarrassing, and I'm scared of being judged, and T being uncomfortable, and me being exposed and so many other things.

T told me that when he had to say the hardest thing he had to say in therapy he finally just literally took a big breath one day and SAID IT. Like jumping off a cliff. And he didn't die. And at first he felt worse, but then he felt BETTER. And I do want to feel better.

We need to tell what we need to tell. It's hard. But I really do believe it's worth it.