This sounds so painful, the closeness with the knowledge that it will end....I know it will end but I choose not to think about it or accept it right now. You give good advise, but I have rose colored glasses on at the moment. I hope I dont push him to far. He has given me the gift of safe touch, but it would be very easy to just hold onto him the next time he hugs me.
I have to take some responsibility for my actions....I dont want to jeopardize his career. I guess what I really want to hear is how he honestly feels about me.
But perhaps I wouldn't like the answer. He may say he doesn't have feelings for me beyond just being a patient and that would hurt. Its confusing!