Reframing my previous post "is this DDNOS or DID".

I have dissociative states that I have labeled:

1. Dread. Dread follows me around wringing it's hands always worried and scared (carries anxiety and panic).

2. The Watcher. I have the watcher who watches others and their responses to me and reports back to me when I get home (very critical parental or authority figure).

3. Shame. I have shame that hangs around me when I get home after The Watcher has reported (my childhood abuser).

4. The Joker. I have The Joker, which comes out more often than I like in public and makes funny statements or acts funny but is not really funny at all (not unlike my father who also acted this way).

5. Inner Child. I have my inner child that appears needy and has no social skills whatsoever. This inner child is 5 years old and holds my trauma memories and is that part that quickly moves me into dissociation when feeling unsafe. This is the part that I struggle with the most as I have never been able to communicate with any success. The 5 year old part of me has never been to school, does not know how to read or write, has a learning disorder, ADHD, and has had inconsistent parenting with long-term sadistic abuse and so there's a huge language barrier there to work with.

6. The Defeatist. I recognize a new part called the defeatist, who orchestrates all these parts to keep me in bondage.

I have tried over the years, but nothing has worked and I fear I will forever be stuck and not able to move through to integration, which is what I am hoping for. I think if I can get through to my Inner Child I would call that a break-through and hopefully the remaining 5 parts will follow and cooperate with what I am trying to accomplish.

Wondering what has worked for those of you who have DID Thanking you in advance for your replies