Salmacis: thank you! I know you're right; it's just that I'm so embarrassed about some of my issues. I'm usually very honest in therapy and I'm not afraid to tell my T anything but some things are hard to say and I don't like blushing in front of my T. (or anyone for that matter)

jazzy: thank you. I know my T won't be uncomfortable, but I will! I know I can do it, though. I want to so I will. I hate to feel embarrassed, though. For me, the problem and the solution are kind of the same, if that makes any sense at all.

stormyangels: Your reply was exactly the reassurance I needed, especially coming from a T. Thanks SO much! Yes, it's because my T is safe that I want to go deeper with her than my other Ts. I want to share it all with her and have her accept me. I want that very badly.

dizgirl: I "suffered in silence" most of my life. I wouldn't let people in, especially not my mother. I want to tell my T everything I wanted to tell her but couldn't.

brightheart: thank you! It's not so much about expressing feelings but using the words I have to use in order to talk about it. It's the subject that makes me feel vulnerable. It's about my body. I want to cross that out. I don't know if I'm even allowed to write those words here, let alone say them to my T. And that's only the beginning. I know I'm judging myself. I have to remember that it's only a PART of me that's stuck at a childhood stage. Most of me is grown-up.

I forgot to say that I got my one email from my T. She said what I wrote to her was okay, she knows it feels embarrassing, and that we will listen to the concerns of all my parts but "hopefully we're going to help you work through it." I love my T!