The last few weeks I felt like I was living my life again - I wasn't having a fantastically good time, a few negative things happened, but that was OK in a way as I dealt with them and did feel that I had jumped in among people and life again and was at least participating.

The last few days I have started to feel distant, like i have climbed back out again. I have just sat here going through posts and while before I felt able to contribute, now I just feel ???? not sure what really, just everything is an effort - like writing this.

Not even sure what I am looking for in posting this - it's just something that I am making myself do.