I have been wondering myself on exactly what I may have and sometimes still experince. I don't think I have ever shared this to pdoc or T in the past. I think I may to new T next visit but wanted some kind of insight to what others may think. I am not wanting a diagnose just some insight if I should bring it up or not.

derealiztion - I can be in the car while with family and I feel like I am in some kinda of bubble that surrounds the car from the outside. I can see and recognize things outside but yet the don't seem real, kind like looking through those 3-d glasses when I was a child.

dissociative amenisa - I have the hardest time trying to remember a period of my childhood that involved my father, we were so close as little but after fifth grade I can't remember. I do remember after eighth grade. There are also parts of my early twenties till just recent that I can't remember but parts and pieces.

I also had episodes like elizabethmarie of going through changes from acting like a child, then very calm and collected to losing control of myself. This is also kinda a blurr I mostly remember the child and losing control. I also remember I did not want to be touched by anyone in this state.

Any help would be appreciated. I am just now accepting I am schizoaffective with BP I. Is this maybe part of it or different. I just want info as to where to go.