Well thankyou all for your words and advice. I had a T session today but i kind of just skirted around the issue of abuse. Instead i worked on shame and anger and how they are connected. But i know that T was waiting for me to talk about the abuse. She never pushes or rushes but she was asking me about where i thought the shame stemmed from and how childhood experiences can be brought forward into adult life.
I've never felt angry towards the abusers because deep down i've always felt that they were only children themselves. But now as an adult i'm realising that if I knew what they were doing was wrong then they more than likely knew what they were doing was wrong. And perhaps now i'm beginning to feel some anger as an adult which i have to express in order to move on and forgive the whole experience. I was resisting talking about it today so i know i'm not quite ready to deal with it as yet but i know its moving forward and closer to leaving my lips which i think is a good thing. I left the session feeling positive about the work we had done together today.I have a few days break now until next session so maybe something will link up in my mind and new ground will be broken.