Thank you Hunny.

We have done some of the trauma work, ie, the secondary trauma of not getting any support when I reported the attack, and some of the anger over the attack, and identifying the ways that it has affected my development. However, we are just now getting into the details of the attack itself. Up until now, as my T said, we have been skirting the issue. It is getting to the details of the attack that is the worst. It is different having to say it out loud, to go into details that I have never shared with anyone else. It has taken time to get the relationship strong enough to be able to talk about this stuff. Like when it sounded to me like she was saying I shouldn't be bothered by my experience, but I knew she wouldn't be saying that. I was able to bring it up and talk about that instead of just feeling rejected and hurt. In the past I would have totally retreated and believed what i thought she said, this time I was able to recognize that she wouldn't say something like that. I was able to talk to her about it and make sure I was wrong in what I was hearing. Whereas before I would have felt so hurt I wouldn't have questioned what I thought she said. It is that trust that makes it possible for me to be able to do this work. Without that, our session would have stopped at that point. So it is good we have that bond.