New T called and I have an appointment. But, I am scared because she probably knows lots about me. While I only know her name, she's in network, a licensed clinical social worker and has a nice phone voice.
My insurance doesn't seem to have gotten much information from previous T. So, I have to play messenger and ask new T to talk to my insurance. AAAAA! I don't want to waste my time messengering for them when I'd rather talk about a lot of other things. I haven't talked to someone since the sixth of this month. I've been collecting things to talk about--I like to talk about what gives me headaches in the hope of relieving my worries and crying.
But, on a bright note, I skipped a month on the thought of suicide thing--unless I get one soon. I think I won't.