I've come to the conclusion that I will probably be in love with my T forever. From our work together - and the bond we've created, she'll ALWAYS hold a special place in my heart. She HAS SAID to me that she has had countertransference issues with me. She says I'm handsome. She said to me "I love you, how could I not." She has told me "I see you as looking to be loved - and to love." We hug at the end of each session. Long, passionate (for ME anyway!) tender hugs that make the day!! I sometimes find myself "nuzzling" in her hair.... (Gotta watch that!)

And yeah, she's given me the same message you got. She DOES care for me - even LOVES me. But, as my therapist, can only give me SO MUCH of what I need - and DESERVE. Our work has been - and will continue to be - going out in the world and trying to get ALL THE REST of what life has to offer. From someone who's capable of providing it.

All I know is that when I'm with her I can EXHALE!!! Just BE! Without fear of judgement or disapproval. And what is so wrong with envisioning a life like that???!! With the person who provides that feeling.

But I know it won't happen. I know it CAN'T happen.

Hence the problem...

Good luck. Heck, good luck to ALL of us.