Thanks _sky. It's nice to hear from you. I just realized this should probably go in the relationships section, but I hope it stays here. I basically don't feel good about myself bc I'm not finding interesting things to do with people. But find interesting things to do alone. And I'm mad at myself for not wanting to do these boring things with people. On a positive note, I have been taking a class. It is about something I think I care about. The people are just OK. Not great. But I'm not lonely for at least one night of the week. There is this one girl who I think is really nice, but I don't know how to get closer to her with out seeming desperate. Same thing at work. I like a lot of people at work, but getting closer to them (like asking one of them out for coffee) is hard because I'm afraid I will sound desperate and push them away. I think I spend way too much time on the computer, like on chat forums and it feels so lonely. A lot of people from my past (that I didn't like and who didn't like me) post have profiles on this certain website that I frequent. I don't know why but today I started thinking of names of people I remembered and looking them up, and I didn't even like them!!! And it just made me feel worse about myself for looking them up and seeing all their friends and exciting life. I'm actually starting to feel a little better now because I'm glad I'm not friends with them and they're nowhere near me so they can't hurt me. I went off on a tangent. Sorry. I think that's all I've got to say though. But sky, are you saying that people who have high self esteem and are not depressed don't need people around them to feel happy? Maybe I should just accept the fact that...I can't even write it. I can't write: "I have no friends." I guess that's something I'll have to work on. I feel like, I'm a loser for having no friends. But if I met someone with no frineds and liked them, I wouldn't think they were a loser OK, Now that I've written a book, I'm gonna go. Peace Love and happiness to all psych centralers!!!