Twisted soul, I too want to be counted and noticed. It is not going to come from her as the MOST benign thing she did was neglect me. Yes I feel unreal. T told me I referred to the mother as "my mother" the other day and that it was a good thing!!!! Aghast, how can that be good? Horror of horrors, I came from that place? I am not like her! Amazing that I felt this work was mostly done and I have fallen back in. I want my friend Jane back because I believe her and what she says. She is gone now. I need to hear those words. If only in my mind. Thanks twisted. I want to tell you that as I wrote twisted I envisioned the game twister which can be very funny at times. Sometimes being twisted is a good thing ehh? Take care.