your parents are supposed to love and protect you not harm you and that is wht she did bynot believing you

there comes a time when you need to accept that they never will admit to any responsibility because of their damage

YOU were not the one at fault - YOU are not the one who should bear the shame - you were a child - innocent - he was a man

A man may have these urges because of past experiences but a MAN does not act on them - a predator does

how do you talk about this when you have been sworn to secrecy? when you have maybe been told you wil go straight to hell if you do tell.. sigh

you do it because you need to heal

you force the words out one by one, kicking and screaming inside , hiding in the deepest part of you because you know it wil bring pain .. but after the pain comes the healing - it cycles - somtimes we seek what we know - abuse - intentionaly or unintentionaly (here i mean me )

you deserve better

you deserve to be loved the right way

you dig up the bone because somthing reminds you - and until it is laid properly to rest it continues to be there

I hoipe you can find a good therapist to help you

i wish you well

remember YOU ARE WORTHWHILE AND DESERVE TO BE HAPPY

wiht kind thoughts

P7