I feel really very bad while you were all posting I was doing the dishes had a load of wash in and cooking hot water for some hot tea...I sometimes think people know me better than they do and as I know I would NEVER post THAT kinda message I would just DO it it's more me I think others will know that too ...sorry ..I am also guessing nobody saw my post when it was up...maybe I will repost it for a short while...I dont wanna leave it up....I am touched you all care though..thank you