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Originally Posted by SoupDragon
Thank-you for this - it does strike a chord with me and also what you said about a lot going on in my life - yes I think there is. And actually on reflection I think for the first time, my T pushed a little to get me to talk about past events which has not brought anything to my consciousness, but has kind of set off some deep rumblings in my head - maybe that is why I am feeling this way. One of the things my T highlighted was the fact that my cousin was murdered and how that may have made events that I may have experienced insignificant in my mind as they weren't as bad as being murdered.
Also my T keeps saying that I haven't shared everything, but I think I have - I wonder what I am missing?
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Hiya;
Yeah when a T pushes that definitly sets things of-at the least unconsciously. Hhhmmm, I'm thinkin comparing yourself to anothers pain, oye a death in this case (which also must have affected you) well, the way I look at it is pain is pain. Once you allow yourself the credit for what you've been through-then the real work through can be done. In a way, by comparing one pain to another's trauma, it protects you from realizing what you yourself have suffered; My T used to tell me there was stuff missing too-and you wouldn't believe what comes up from the past just by living day to day, familiar things can trigger new stuff all the time. Looking back, that point at which I said I had nothing left to tell was actually the numbest I ever felt-my defense mechanisms had my walls up for sure-my T must have hit something good, as I suspect your T has with you. Self discover is a journey fer realz.
I remember Freud saying something to the extent of "I'm not saying you should mercilessly examine your innnermost troubles...but if you do, you will find out how little you know about yourself". Haha, I almost put that as my signature but I was too lazy lolz
Take care and congratulations on what you have been able to speak of so far in therapy-that stuff is so not fun sometimes.
-obj