Thank you for your reply. I don't even know what type of therapist to look for.

And then trust is the biggest hurdle to over come.

Maybe it is wrong of me, but I am hoping that if I can ultimately reach a point where I unleash what is inside of me... that perhaps I can find peace by using just this forum.

A therapist... humm that is a huge leap. Coming to this site was also a huge leap... not sure I am ready to take another huge leap until I get 'settled' on this mountain top that I now find myself.

Don't know if that makes sense.

I must say just receiving even a word of validation from you brings a small grain of hope to me. Thank you phoenix7 for sharing your insight.

Kind Regards
The Nameless One