Hi y'all. I have come to a conclusion of sorts. Ever since I married my husband, I have had moments of feeling trapped and of wanting out. He is a great guy, super nice and extremely responsible. I think one major problem is that I feel really bad about myself all the time compared to him. I feel like he is so super great and nice and that he never does anything wrong, never says the wrong thing, is always perfect. So in comparison, I am a total loser. I say the wrong things, do the wrong things, feel the wrong things. Some of the things he calls me out on but others, I call myself out on. I just am so miserable and want out so badly, but just don't know what to do. I feel so trapped in this relationship. I don't even want to kiss him. I resent him and see him as smug for being so perfect.
I used to be a nice person but I don't feel like I am anymore.