I so badly want to get away from myself, but my therapist says I can't do this anymore (I dissociate a lot). I want to run far far away from the horrible, evil monster that I am, but I am stuck. It hurts so much.

I want to learn to be comfortable in my own skin. Right now I'm so anxious I feel sick. I want to be ok. I don't care about being super happy or wonderful or anything like that. I just want to be OK.

It hurts so much.