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Old Jul 03, 2011, 01:08 PM
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OK, so I started therapy 3 months ago for eating related issues that have bothered me my whole life. Well, it's been incredibly helpful and my eating has normalized remarkably from when I've been in therapy, and it's nowhere near as big an issue as it was for me when I first started. Of course, I realize that my issues with food and my body have not completely disappeared, but they are nowhere near as bad as before, so I guess maybe I don't feel as much of a need to talk about them anymore.

The way that my therapist starts session is we first talk about how my week has gone, then we read the food records I bought for the week and she offers me her insights or suggestions. But I guess b/c it's not such a huge problem as it was for me in the past, I feel like our sessions will be moving more towards just talking about my life. Like in our last session, (and I had been away for 3 weeks), we talked about my vacation and how it felt like for me to be home, but I didn't really know what to say. Like, I guess b/c I came in originally for food issues, I don't know how much I'm supposed to talk about the other parts of my life. And it's not that I don't like talking to her (I actually really like her a lot), but I just feel weird babbling on about myself, especially when it's not really what her specialty is. So a lot of times I don't tell her things that maybe are not so superficial b/c I don't know what to say, and honestly, yes, there are some things I am dealing with, but not to the point where I feel the need to talk about them with her.
Like for example, I have been attracted to girls for awhile and have had sex a couple times with another girl. Last night my friend and I went out to a lesbian club and I made out with this one girl there and my friend and I talked about the fact that it's easier to by straight than it is to be gay. So am I supposed to say this to my therapist? But I don't really feel the urge to discuss this with anyone. For me, it's personal and something that isn't a top priority right now as I am busy trying to get into graduate school/doing an internship. I mean, it seems kind of silly to just throw it out there for the sake of saying something that isn't so superficial, as well as the fact that her specialty is very clearly eating disorders, not LGBT issues.
And it's not that I don't trust her, I actually like her a lot, I guess I am just struggling with how to be in therapy. Or, does this mean I am ready to stop therapy if my primary issue is on its way to being resolved? But she seems to want to continue seeing me, as she is asking me when would be a good time to do our appointments in Sept. once school starts. IDK, I am confused, please help!