yes, this........but actually, I have asked, can I really be helped, can you still help me? and she has said, yes.
she has said, I believe in you, I believe you can do this, I believe you can be a good mom........it's a matter of me being able to believe it myself, which i don't. Maybe that is something I want to tell her, will you keep seeing me even if it takes me a loooooooooooooonnnnnnngggggg time to believe that and my progress out of this bad place is very slow???!!