Thanks, poet.

I just looked at the Women's forum on PC. Posters write about intimate parts of their body and ask questions. I have to talk about those things with my T. I can't even write them. I keep imagining my session, just saying what I need to but I'm too triggered by it. I wish I didn't have this part stuck where she is. Too many feelings are all mixed-up and I know they're from the past, not about now. Maybe I'm making it more complicated than it is.

My former T once asked me why I'm holding onto shame. I got angry with her because she thought it may be because I didn't want to quit therapy. This is a REAL issue for me, not about wanting to stay in therapy!! She didn't understand anything, just told me part of me didn't grow up.

I'm not afraid of my T. I'm afraid of ME.