How long have you been married? It sounds to me like you just need to invest time in yourself, go back to school and even read some books on how to better your self esteem. You have a nice man, and it sounds like you are continuously critisizing yourself and feeling like you are not good enough. Hey, he picked you to be his mate, you said he is smart and always does things right, well he did pick you, give yourself some credit.

I almost wonder is he is a better man than your father was and because you were raised to accept a different behavior in a man, you feel undeserving. What is in your history where you are fighting against having a good man? Now don't you walk away from this nice man, you figure out what is really behind your feelings and you just work on it. You keep incurring that you don't deserve this man, why? Get behind the reasons you have already stated and clear that up with yourself. You have every right to enjoy this man, you just have to learn how.

You know what some women do? They meet a really good man and because their father was abusive to their mother they feel uncomfortable because they think they should be treated that way too. You really have to get into your past and figure out where this comes from, don't throw away something good just because of something in your past that has made you feel some kind of inadequacy.

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