Thanks everyone! I forced myself to leave today for a little bit. It was very hard. I went to the store to pick up a couple of items and left feeling anxious and irritable. I hate that it is so hard for me to function with something so simple. It is just very hard for me to be near people.

That is interesting what your T said, slow. I do feel like I need to be in control all of the time, because I fear any chance of instability in my life. Maybe that has a lot to do with why I'm having trouble too. It makes a lot of sense.