why can't i just accept that i am just inadequate and that yes, i do not have any emotional skin.

when i see the "girlfriend" (or whatever the hell she is) of the boy i like, who has been flirting with me and who i've shared some very personal moments with, it MAKES ME CRAZY.

the right thing to do would be to cut the snake loose - i mean, i know i deserve better but being borderline and having some twisted sense of hope and emotionally masochistic i will take the risk and pretend like he never had/has a relationship with her. maybe i can at least get laid. oh yes, being used. that's all i'm used to anyway.