Lauren,
I am sorry for your horrible abuse. What a tragic story of sheer malicious deeds. What can I say. I can offer you some hope, because without hope we fall into the pits of hell. I can tell you that healing takes time and the journey can be long, but you can have peace during this difficult time by shifting your thoughts every now and then to a positive mode. This assures that you will find solutions to the inner turmoil and some peace. When we keep a positive attitude our life moves in a positive direction. I hope you have someone in your life outside of cyberspace that is helping you with the healing process.

4hope

You are of God little children and have overcome them, because He who is in you is greater than he who is in the world. 1 John 4:4