So sorry sidestepper! It is not right for your treatment team to behave this way. They should be supporting you, not adding to your troubles! Is it hard for you to ask for help? I know it is for me, but your apartment manager sounds sincere, it is okay to need help, and she sounds like she is willing to give you a hand. There is NOTHING wrong with that.

I can't imagine living in chronic pain and trying to overcome painful childhood trauma. I really feel for you! I wish I had some magic words to help - just know that I care and I will keep you in my thoughts!