birdcrazy, Hi! Just wanted to see how you are doing now? Any changes? I finally accepted that I do have to deal with schizoaffective. I had to educate myself as much as I could to see if I fit in. Went to therapy and I read a book called Loving someone with bipolar disorder, since mine is BPI. It really helped cause there were examples of symptoms, conversations from the BP side and the one not dealing with BP. So it really helped me to see yes I do think, speak and have symptoms like this. Plus it helped my husband understand what I have always tried to explain how I feel or think. Maybe this may help you too. Here for you if you ever need a hug.