Well out of desperation I took and extra dose of my abilify. I am on 5 mg dosage so I ended up taking 1 int the a.m. and 1 in the p.m. for a total of 10 mgs. I do feel better. I feel rather flat and blah but anything is better than being lost in an abyss of pain. So I believe that your prayers helped (THANK YOU). I also slept as much as possible to try and sleep through the horrid thoughts and feelings.

I feel better today and I am gonna try and do some of my creative things that make me feel good or whatever I find to be self soothing , be it sleeping, chatting or just reading.

I just want to say a big thank you for those of you who offered your warm and loving support. It has helped soooo much to be surrounded by others who understand, you just cannot get that from anybody else but a fellow bipolar sufferer.