Hi. I am a new member and this is my first post (I hope I'm posting this in the right place), and although I'm not great at explaining myself or articulating what I want to say (which is why it's hard to "google my crazy"), perhaps someone can provide a little insight...
To get to the point: I seem to be living in my head more and more everyday. I've always talked to myself in my head a bit, but over the last year or two it has become a constant thing. Literally 24/7 I am talking to myself in my head, saying the most random things, talking rubbish - but I simply cannot shut my own voice up... I even catch myself talking out loud to myself.
To be clear: I am NOT "hearing voices" and no one is telling to me to do anything, it's just my own voice talking talking talking (sometimes in "conversation" with myself but sometimes not talking *to* me, just talking out loud talking talking...). It's really starting to drive me mad: I can't sit through a movie or read a book or have a meal without my own voice in my head distracting me all the time - and that cannot be a "normal" thing!...
I don't know a great deal about mental/psychological issues, so I'm here to learn and help myself, but to try and explain - I don't feel depressed, I don't have mood swings like I used to, I do sometimes wake up "like a different person" somedays (ie. sometimes I'm positive and motivated and other days I'm very negative and pissed off), I don't hear multiple voices, I don't find myself in strange places without knowing how I got there, but I do sometimes have conversations/arguments with friends in my head and then when I see them I struggle to remember what we really talked about and what I imagined we did... So what I'm saying is I don't know how that is all related if at all / if I have multiple types of "crazy" etc...
I don't really know where to start let alone understand why by mind is the way it is - all I know is my internal voice never stops talking and it is overwhelming my daily life! If anyone has any decent suggestions or ideas or can offer help in some way, I'd appreciate the info.
Many Thanks.
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